Hello beautiful friends.
It’s been a long time since I’ve sat down to write a blog entry and I felt that this week was a good week to do it.
I’ve been battling with something this week and I’m hoping that it will reach one heart who needs to hear these words and for them to know they are NOT alone.
I guess with all of the distractions of running our business and the stresses of life, it has gotten the best of the me.
I didn’t even realize how distant I felt from the people I loved, distant from my creativity and inspiration.... distant from God. I have been so “busy” in such an unhealthy way. I put up walls and I had no idea that I was doing it. (I will be doing another post about breathing room, stay tuned)
This week I was asked to help my church with a project and when I arrived I felt the enemy attack at FULL force.
He whispered lies that I began to believe.
“Randi, you are insignificant.
You are NOT enough.
You are under valued and under appreciated. These people don’t love you. You are alone.”
The list could go on.
This day was really tough which followed with a tough week.
I had never felt more alone or more defeated.
And let me be clear.
NO ONE did anything to make me feel this way.
It was ONLY the enemy whispering convincing lies into my head.
So I again began to ask myself,
How could God love me?!?
If I don’t even value myself.....
Oooooh these felt like such valid questions in the moment but man was I wrong.....
I forgot for a moment that Jesus made it VERY Clear in Psalm 139:14 : "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made: your works are wonderful, I know that full well."
I always believe God's timing is divine.
So just when I needed it, this scripture magically popped up in my notifications for the verse of the day.
“You are the light of the world—like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden. No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket. Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father.”
(Thank you Holy Spirit) It reminded me of Gods promise and his truth ....
Yes I AM the light. Nothing or NO ONE can dim or cover my light!!!
In this world it is SO easy to depend on validation from others....
Imagine running a business! It’s so easy to fall into this negative self talk and feeling like you aren’t good enough unless you’re booking clients or getting compliments on your work....
I’m here to tell you that you ARE enough, you ARE worthy and your are NOT alone!
Once you mature in your faith
(which I am still working on), you can dodge these battles.
It’s not easy but you’re not in this alone!
A walk with Jesus is a little bit like a roller coaster but that’s because we are influenced by those and situations around us.
Back to the light 💡:
Imagine you are walking with Jesus in complete darkness on a narrow path.
Jesus is the ONLY one who has the flash light.... So in order for you to see where you are going, you need to step aside so Jesus can shine that flash light ahead.
HE LEADS > you follow. Simple as that.
So if you feel the tug on your heart and maybe you feel stuck or alone, take a breath, and imagine stepping off to the side so you can have a massive bright in front of you!
You got this!!!